From The Desk of Peter Grandich – Confession of a Former Good Son
I often share that during the height of my “legend in my own mind lifestyle”, I was also turning the Ten Commandments into the ten suggestions. Sadly, despite supposedly becoming a “Godly” man the last decade or so, I find my “Catholic guilt” still tearing at my heart over my 94 year-old mother.
At age 88, I took her in and bought a home in a 55 and over community that would serve my family best (my daughter was 17 at the time). By 90, my mom was living in an assisted living facility, and for the last 18 months, in a nursing home.
The guilt I feel is a combination of the “little” I’ve done for her outside of paying for things (while my wife has done what 99 out of 100 daughter-in-law’s would never do in terms of the amount of time and care she gives my mom), and how I avoid going to the nursing home a lot because not wanting to see so-called “life” in there.
“Honor your father and Mother”, says Ephesians 6:2
I struggle badly still with this Commandment.
Please know up until the time she went into the nursing home, I felt little guilt and thought I was a very good son.
And as I struggled with this, two videos met my eyes, both from sources that had no idea I grapple with this.
Watch them both, and pray for me (and all those in a similar situation) that God’s Grace of forgiveness descends on me and all of us.
“If we acknowledge our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive our sins and cleanse us from every wrongdoing.” 1 John 1:9